A New Season in My Life

What a week!  On Monday I went to an oncologist to learn about Chemo and on Tuesday I started my first round ever.  It's such a crazy thought getting this poison pumped into my veins.  Before I continue though I should make it very clear that I don't have CANCER.  I have Myasthenia Gravis which is a rare autoimmune disorder and have had it since I was 13.  I've been taking prednisone for the past 15 years now and it's time for a change.  My body can't handle the weight, the joint aches, night sweats and my mood swings.  Doing chemo was the last choice and my only option after the steriods.  Anyway, I started on Tuesday.  Mom was late picking me up and stressed me out that day.  She apologized for needing to go to renew her license on one of the scariest days of my life. When I got there I wanted to cry b/c of what I was about to do.  But God is Good and ever so gently reminded me that life could be alot harder and that I could be on of these people with cancer.  Thank God for that. 

The treatment went well.  I felt groggy afterwards but was back to myself a few hours later.  I also had a blood clot come out of my nose and a weird bruising on my arm.  Today, which is 2 days later, I woke up exshausted, tummy hurting and my taste buds acting all crazy.  That is all for now but I'm living in daily fear of waking up with hair next to me instead of on my head.

I have to make a confession...

So...ummm...I didn't go work out today. I know, I was suppose to but I was actually busy doing stuff. I met my kids that I get to mentor today. . . all I can say is it's going to be an interesting semester. Then I went to the dr. which is always a fun. Then I actually had homework with lots of reading. Ohhhh! But I did go to the store today and got ALL healthy food, no joke! Nothing sweet...nothing fattening...lots of veggies. But I can't lie. Just a little bit ago I REALLY wanted something sweet ( I think honestly it was just in my head) so I dugg around in my cabinet for something. Suprise! I found some cookies. I ate 2...I couldn't help myself. But all the other food decisions have been good today. I ate lots of chicken salad. J/k!! For lunch I had yummy sushi!! Anyway, this is all for now. Tomorrow I'm working out, don't worry.

Watch out! I'm feeling feisty!

So, obviously I haven't been on this thing in a couple of weeks. As much as my best friend seems to think this is sooo darn helpful, it really doesn't help me one way or the other I think. But after this weekends ummm, I'm trying to think of the right word here... discussion, I promised I would try to do this more often. I'm not sure what I even feel like writing about.

Well, I guess you could say I emptied my life of pointless clutter yesterday when I told Justin I couldn't do this "thing" we were doing anymore. At first I was honestly sad and I think that was more because of his reaction, which showed he didn't really care. Today I'm doing good though. I know I did the right thing.

Umm, I have ate an apple and finished my soup from Pho John's...it seemed like a healthy choice. Also, I started getting ready for the Armidillo Run today and did 2 miles.

I really don't have anything else to say. I honestly don't know how often I'm going to be doing this blogging thing. I know I don't have a busy life like the mommy or the school teachers and people wonder what I do with my time but it's just not something that I can get into, we'll see. But basically when I feel like I have to do something it seems to take the fun out of it.

By the way, it was great having Juli and Carmela come stay at my place. Hope, you should have came, you're always welcome. Good luck girls with the rest of your week.

First Day on the Blogging Wagon

Well, I finally made it to the blogging world. The only reason I'm doing this blogging thing is because my best friend seems to think it could help us loose weight by saying how we feel. I figure, why not, what do I have to lose. Right? I'm not too sure what to say, so here goes. In case you haven't notisted, I'm what some people (even myself) consider to be fat. But here is the thing and I don't mean to sound conceited but I'm also pretty...thus, "Yes, I'm that 'pretty fat girl". Because I know I atleast have my looks going for me this helps me to not have completely low self esteem...Ok. I need to just stop talking about my looks and focuse more on what I want to say.

I want to lose weight so I can feel more like the person I know is hidden under all of these layers of fat. I think she is everything I'm not: bold, strong, lives on the edge and adventourous. At this point I would say my weight lose goal is 75-pounds, I know, it's almost a whole person. Yuck! Anyway, today, I plan on eating as healthy as possible and definately getting a workout in besides sex. LOL!!! Oh, how I crack myself up. Seriously though. It looks like a pretty day, so I'm going to go walking 2 miles. As to if that happens, well I will report back tomorrow to share. So, until next time this is Lightning McQueen signing off. And remember: Eat your veggies.